Well, Moriah pick up your damn phone. I've got something to tell you. And the rest of us(the rest of us being Lindsey, Ronney, Kay, Steph, Dami, and I) kind of wanted to talk to you. I think you know why. And if you don't. I'm sure your last journal can explain it all for you. After all, you started it.


Because I'm not even sure if you're going to read my comment on your journal or any of the rest of it for that matter because you're not one to face up to the shit of a mess you create. No wait...I take that back. You do. By seemingly making it worse than it already was.


So like the title says I agree with Shelby and a few of Natasha's and Jeanette's comments.

And like I said before you fucked up. And now you are so fucking screwed. The internet wasn't the place for that and it was very bad timing...so now I have no fucking idea what you're going to do.

You really need to stop this whole "Listen to me because I've been through shit" stuff. And the whole "The whole world's against me and they're all wrong" shit. Shove it up your ass, okay?

They've got no reason to believe you and they've got no reason not to believe you either. So shut up. If they're your "friends", then you've got to trust them enough that they'd make the right decision. And if they just choose not to make it at this moment, don't hold it against them.

As for people dying. Shit like that happens to us everyday. We have to learn to get over that. I know it's hard for you but you have to remember everybody else lost someone too. I was there the day Trey died. And that same day we lost Kailey and Chris too, so you're not exactly alone there.

I really don't know what happened to you these past few months. You went from the girl everybody loved to an empty ghost of yourself. You don't even look the same. Or say the same things. Or do the same things for that matter. It's like you died along with Adie.

Maybe that's it. Maybe it was Adie. I don't know much about the first few months that Adie and Danny decided to make themselves known to your "friends", but I kind of wonder if the friendships that you had started and ended with Adie. Like maybe you were in them because of Adie and not because of you...

You already know my whole opinion on the "friends" thing. I don't like them. I tolerate them and protect them because of you. So all those sleepless nights standing guard over their houses is all your fault. I agreed with Lea on the topic of what you should've have done. And I still think you should do that. It would make this all so much easier if you just...left for awhile...Deny yourself Shadow, packed your bags, and just disappeared...Maybe you should just go to Europe this summer like we planned. And just stayed there with Blake and Joe for awhile...Gain a bit more of solid ground. And get yourself back together...

I don't know what to do anymore. Or how to handle you anymore. At all. You're not all there anymore and sometimes you just...snap...like you did in your journal or I find you just don't care anymore and you quit...It scares me. A lot. Because I don't know if I'm going to wake up and hear from somebody that you slit your wrists or hung yourself...

So...yeah....I kind of hope you read and let someone else take care of you for awhile instead of doing it yourself....then....maybe...it'll be alright.

Don't get mad at your "friends" or the people who tried to help, okay? Just listen...they listened to you...return the favor...

And do me a favor and look in the mirror...and just think for awhile...about that poem that Adie wrote, the one on the mantle at the Loft...